I don't know why, but I let my weekend derail me and make me feel defeated. I didn't get back on track quickly, in fact, I sort of rebelled and binged yesterday.
I know what to do, but doing it some days seems impossible.
Today I'm trying to shake the defeated feeling (even though I weighed in this morning and had back almost all of the weight I lost last week!) and be good.
I WANT to be obedient to God's call and those this weight. I WANT to fit into all the clothes in my closet. I WANT to not hate what I see some days in the mirror. I WANT it. But some days, I lose that perspective.
I'm praying for focus today. I know this is a journey, and a couple steps backwards doesn't mean I stop. But for the 57th time again, I'm here. I'm working. I'm committed.
I hesitate to set lofty goals...but I will say this: Tyler graduates from the police academy in a month...and I want to be safely in the 180s and I have a dress in mind to wear. It's a little snug now....so I have something to work towards.
Anyone else felt the struggle bus feeling lately? How do I stay OFF of that bus?
Guess it's all part of the process..
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